Man up Danny and quit crying

Although I do believe I'm going through some sort of mid life crisis. Or at least starting to realize how many more years I have to work before retiring and just burned out. But, I am one who has trouble giving up. There might be a dark night but always a bright day after that. After I hit my lowest a couple of weeks ago I decided to change up some things. I had taken this new job as operations manager and it's overwhelming. The owner is a bit of a micro manager. Even having his mom who works at the front desk text him when I leave. For me that's a problem. As someone who is supposed to be running the company I don't need or appreciate someone trying to monitor me. I work many times when I'm not at the office and unless you're going to do my job don't try to assess how I should be doing things. Once I realized I have difference in opinion on how things should be run I realized this was not going to work out for me.

I decided to move on. I realized I did not owe anyone anything and should make myself happy and do what's best for me and my family. I was able to get a new position with another company within a couple of weeks and giving my notice today. For less responsibility and pressure I was able to get 10k dollars more a year and still have a company car. Top notch benefits with 401k matching, etc. I feel bad for the company I'm leaving but maybe companies should appreciate their employees more or risk losing them.

I need to cement this moment in time in my brain. Tell myself to make the best of the next stop and not get emotional about work. As I get older I'm not as resiliant to being down and I don't have as much patience for BS. I need to stay positive and work hard. Most of us have no choice but to work. I also need to stop being a big vagina! I whine and complain too much and I need to realize people are really suffering in the world. Stop being a little bitch Danny. Rise up and realize how good you actually got it.

I do know the root of my issues, and it's my own fault. My dumb ass bought a Lexus 3 years ago. I knew I wasn't ready to buy it but wanted to impress my wife. Now, I still have 2 years left on the car and it's dragging me down. I don't have much disposable income right now and it's taking away from being able to relax on my time off. I enjoy golfing, camping, Vegas, etc. I'm not able to do these things because I was a dumb ass and got myself in debt. Now, instead of crying about it I just need to focus and get it resolved. Also, learn from this for the next time. I think many of us do this. We run up our debt and then we're stressed about not having enough money to pay the debt off. I've realized that I need to save money and avoid big purchases. Having a cushion and extra cash is the better way to live. I just hope I listen to myself this time instead of going out and buying that Mazerati I want. Stay humble and drive a Honda Accord instead of a Lexus or Mazerati. Honestly, cars always get old and are not worth paying a big price for. Life is all about enjoyment and peace. The more stress and angst you add to your life? You're only going to add stress to your life.