I'm on United flight 832 from Houston to Los Angeles. Im struggling and I don't get why. I'm not one of those that will go off and start shooting people so don't worry. I don't even own a gun. I'm just finding it harder and harder to deal with certain people. I feel there is an entire group of people who don't give a damn about anyone else. Sometimes I wish I was like that. The rest of the time I am thankful I'm not.
I know money rules the world. I get it. When I was in New Jersey for corporate meetings people were so obvious with their adulation for money and power. Kissing our VP and CEOs asses even though they talk shit on them behind their back. But I'm not innocent. I got frustrated a few months ago and told my boss that I couldn't believe I didn't even get a chance to pitch myself for a position. I had worked the entire region by myself for months without any commission on sales. All I wanted was a chance to present my plan. He chastised me and told me that's the last time he would accept an email with that tone from me. So now, I avoid any discussion that's not pleasant. So i feel like a kiss ass myself because I can't even voice my honest opinion. Instead, I just continue to work and will just keep to myself or quit when I find a better long term option.
I think it's that lack of honesty that has me struggling. Hardly anyone is honest. Many treat day to day life as a poker game. I guess I can't blame them though. We're all in essence trying our hardest to take advantage of each other. Capitalizing for ourselves and our families. Many times at the expense of others even people who we're supposed to care about.
Is this how we're supposed to live our lives? Wouldn't a win win for both sides be better. A way for both parties to leave the table winning? I know, I'm fucking delusional. I guess my reasoning is that we spend our entire lives chasing wealth and power. In reality none of it matters one bit. Money is a figment of our imagination. It's only purpose is to allow us to trade for items similar to early times. A person would raise chickens and trade the eggs for milk and beef from his neighbor. A win win at first. Until one neighbor realizes he can take advantage of his nicer neighbor. Soon, it's a lopsided agreement and one of them suffers because eventually the uneven trades sway completely one direction.
Those days have been replaced with descendants who haven't had to work for generations because their ancestors were Rockefeller's, Morgan's, Rothschild's, or Walton's. Billions of dollars that will accumulate a ridiculous amount of interest. Interest that is more than many of us will ever even make in our lives. Many of these families just continue to accumulate wealth like an extended version of Monopoly. A game of Monopoly where you can continue to add money to the bank. Living a life of luxury born by luck. Without ever contributing a thing to society. While others were just unfortunate enough to be born into poverty without any chance of ever escaping.
I'm not a moralist and I'm also not saying that we should all be communists and share. I'm simply saying isn't there a point where enough is enough? I make around 100k a year. To be honest, I believe that is close to enough. If I hadn't bought a Lexus it might even be closer to being enough. I'm not even saying that they should be satisfied with that. Give them 100 million! But isn't 30 billion for one person like Oprah enough? Is it a good idea for society to allow Oprah or others to leave billions to their kids?Shouldn't there be a max?
It reminds me of celebrities like Jennifer Garner and Jamie Fox. These two have made well over 100 million dollars in movies. Yet both do commercials. Garner does Capital One commercials while Fox does Verizon. Is it that they ran out of money so they're so desperate for money? Are they paranoid and no amount is ever enough? Or do we become addicted to money like a drug?
Once again, I'm not a moralist or a judge. I'm just thinking and writing to get it off of my chest. I'm fine with people having yachts, mansions, and cars. I personally don't want a mansion because all I think about is how much more that is to manage. Native americans lived in tents and roamed to where the food was. Only killing what they could eat. Allowing the population of Buffalo to replenish. That way of life could have endured until the next natural disaster. That is if it wasn't for another group of people that wanted to eliminate that group of people off the planet. Although these people would respect their own family and children, they were willing to rape, kill and destroy other people simply because they felt they were better. Thus, the beginning of manifest destiny. Whatever your dreams are it's your right as ordained from God. These people would go home after a day of murder and pray to their God for choosing them as having the right to own land that is nobody's to own. Kissing their children goodnight after they gave smallpox to tribes of people.
My problem is that after some soul searching I realized that what I was chasing was someone else's goal not my own. I don't give a damn about a mansion, yachts, or power. I do like nice cars though. I'd really like one of those 70k Mazerati Gibli's. But in my opinion 70k isn't anywhere close to building a 20 million dollar mansion with 15 bathrooms. A mansion that houses a family of 3. I hope that I keep this mindset. I don't want to be someone who wants the biggest house like it's a competition.
I guess I don't understand people that enough is never enough. Why does Jamie Fox give a damn about Verizon? Is he just that big of a fan of their service that he wants to tell the world? Or does he want another comma in his bank account?
I guess it doesn't matter. We're all just buying time and crossing our fingers that it doesn't end tomorrow. But if that's true why not stop working when you have enough and enjoy your life? I understand many people love what they do and money comes with that. But, did someone like Steve Jobs actually enjoy his life? Or was he driven by the desire to be remembered and accomplish goals? I know enough about him to know his business was very successful but his personal life was the opposite. Abandoning his child while he had millions. Working until his death. What causes someone to do that? Did he become Apple? I guarantee you at some point nobody will remember. Whether its 50 years or 2000 chances are Apple will be a fruit again. Life will go on. But Steve Jobs daughter will forever be damaged by a father that she never had. The man could have walked away at 30 years old a multi millionaire and become the greatest father and humanitarian that ever lived. Instead his products have come and gone and as a person he never got to exist. Instead trapped in this persona of Apple God!
There are gray areas though and I know that. Elon Musk is a gray area. Here's a guy that seems to get it. Working to make the world a better and more efficient place. Electric cars because gas is poison. Last thing and then I'll stop hear me out. At some point people started sucking gases out of the earths core. Oil and gas to fuel our cars. Which is fine because they didn't know the repercussions at first. But once they did why not stop? Why not find another solution? Money is why! Why are alcohol and cigarettes legal but not marijuana? Money is why. They'll tell you it's something else. Fact is millions die from both alcohol and cigarettes that are made in a lab to be addictive. Yet a plant that grows in the ground is illegal. We're seeing the greed in the way car manufacturers are blocking Musk. His radical ideas scare the establishment.
My answer? Fuck it! Get enough money to survive and then escape. Live your short time on this planet to be happy. Help create a future for our children or be selfish and live your life for yourself. Just don't reach old age and realize that most of your friends and family actually want you to die because they're waiting for their inheritance. But while people are still fracking even though it's causing earth quakes in Oklahoma? Or sucking natural gas and oil out of the ground even though it's causing unknown effects deep in our earths core? I'm going to say fuck it and watch a stripper get naked, smoke some Sativa, and have a drink because it's not hurting anyone but myself. It's not like I tricked my elderly neighbors into signing over power of attorney so that I can evict them and take their house. But I just read this happened because someone else did simply because they could. Because their selfish needs and capitalizing were more important than allowing a man and wife to enjoy their final days together. Or the woman and her husband who convinced her elderly father to sign over power of attorney and then evicted him from his house so they could move in. People like this completely discourage me from ever believing the world will become a better place.
My problem is that after some soul searching I realized that what I was chasing was someone else's goal not my own. I don't give a damn about a mansion, yachts, or power. I do like nice cars though. I'd really like one of those 70k Mazerati Gibli's. But in my opinion 70k isn't anywhere close to building a 20 million dollar mansion with 15 bathrooms. A mansion that houses a family of 3. I hope that I keep this mindset. I don't want to be someone who wants the biggest house like it's a competition.
I guess I don't understand people that enough is never enough. Why does Jamie Fox give a damn about Verizon? Is he just that big of a fan of their service that he wants to tell the world? Or does he want another comma in his bank account?
I guess it doesn't matter. We're all just buying time and crossing our fingers that it doesn't end tomorrow. But if that's true why not stop working when you have enough and enjoy your life? I understand many people love what they do and money comes with that. But, did someone like Steve Jobs actually enjoy his life? Or was he driven by the desire to be remembered and accomplish goals? I know enough about him to know his business was very successful but his personal life was the opposite. Abandoning his child while he had millions. Working until his death. What causes someone to do that? Did he become Apple? I guarantee you at some point nobody will remember. Whether its 50 years or 2000 chances are Apple will be a fruit again. Life will go on. But Steve Jobs daughter will forever be damaged by a father that she never had. The man could have walked away at 30 years old a multi millionaire and become the greatest father and humanitarian that ever lived. Instead his products have come and gone and as a person he never got to exist. Instead trapped in this persona of Apple God!
There are gray areas though and I know that. Elon Musk is a gray area. Here's a guy that seems to get it. Working to make the world a better and more efficient place. Electric cars because gas is poison. Last thing and then I'll stop hear me out. At some point people started sucking gases out of the earths core. Oil and gas to fuel our cars. Which is fine because they didn't know the repercussions at first. But once they did why not stop? Why not find another solution? Money is why! Why are alcohol and cigarettes legal but not marijuana? Money is why. They'll tell you it's something else. Fact is millions die from both alcohol and cigarettes that are made in a lab to be addictive. Yet a plant that grows in the ground is illegal. We're seeing the greed in the way car manufacturers are blocking Musk. His radical ideas scare the establishment.
My answer? Fuck it! Get enough money to survive and then escape. Live your short time on this planet to be happy. Help create a future for our children or be selfish and live your life for yourself. Just don't reach old age and realize that most of your friends and family actually want you to die because they're waiting for their inheritance. But while people are still fracking even though it's causing earth quakes in Oklahoma? Or sucking natural gas and oil out of the ground even though it's causing unknown effects deep in our earths core? I'm going to say fuck it and watch a stripper get naked, smoke some Sativa, and have a drink because it's not hurting anyone but myself. It's not like I tricked my elderly neighbors into signing over power of attorney so that I can evict them and take their house. But I just read this happened because someone else did simply because they could. Because their selfish needs and capitalizing were more important than allowing a man and wife to enjoy their final days together. Or the woman and her husband who convinced her elderly father to sign over power of attorney and then evicted him from his house so they could move in. People like this completely discourage me from ever believing the world will become a better place.
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