Roast some smores (poetry)

I'll be present till Santa comes down the chimney. I discover points of tension And then provide stress relief. I'm a troubleshooter of some sorts sometimes I mop up wet floors, provide mag locks to highly sensitive doors. Then I go roast some s'mores. I love hearing my kids say "daddy can I have some more. I design solutions that help you unwind. You can't rewind time so you better go buy my system while you still have time. Infinite security is what I'm trying to propose. Don't leave your assets exposed. Don't you ever trust no hoes. I keep my hoes in the garden. I beg your pardon. I'll never get arrested so I'll never have to ask for a pardon. I walk through life never no reason to tip toe. But no problems I be starting. Why is it that all the crazy chicks that want to fuck my bros are the chicks that i adore and propose. Why did i trust em? I've won the game bitch cause you can't trust them hoes.

Dink and I dunk

All ya gotta do is put alcohol in front of a drunk. I want to get krunked. Gfunk till I die cause everything else I flunked. Mostly I got punked. I believe it's because I worked with too many punks. Stank like some skunks. Why do people try to take advantage of others to quench their desires, eventually theyre fucked! When you speak to me say sire. I'm retired, free to do what I when I want. I treated this life like a slam dunk. Like rich Gannon I dink and dunk. Passin all y'all in one of my inventions. Im always pumped, dont get pimped. Always think, never just jump. To belittle you would not be one of my intentions. O course I be big pimpin. Look at my junk, i mean i got some junk no a trunk with some junk. But that's how it's always been. It's just that today more problems i be solvin. Most of the time these problems are solved by this thing I'm twisting. You'll never outsmart me what the fuck were you thinking? I'm the HNIC in this twisted environment you see, the constant instability. the inability to be constant Is my specialty. I'm almost immune to everything you got. Or have ever seen. I had to one up charlie sheen. There were too many men so i added two and a half times more women. was big ballin when you were not. Life has always been a constant struggle once again for alot it was not. Some have lakes others have puddles. don't know what I'm trying to say where's my silly smokes, no need for long meetings just some quick huddles. my rum and coke my ice is melting. Where's my luggage another couple meetings I gotta juggle. Where are the trees in this concrete jungle. I can't have them for free a few palms I'm gonna smuggle.

Say no to Racism

It's my belief that if you don't stand for anything you might as well not exist at all. I try to have some integrity so I need to practice what I preach. Like a lot of others started this life from humble beginnings. I could be accused of a lot of things but one belief I've always had even if it was not common around me was unity. I have never judged a man by the color of his skin but instead I look at the content of a man's character. A courageous man once said that and was murdered for that belief. I don't care what color you are I only ask that you treat me the way I treat you and that you're in this journey called life to help our kind achieve peace and unity. I've already lost some of you and if I have that's fine ignore this and go read some other post about things that don't really have any significance in reality. If you disagree with me that's fine too. BUT, if you are racist and look at people of different color as lower than you please delete me from your life all together. I don't wish to associate with anyone at all that has hate in their heart. I am outspoken and I always have been and probably always will be. But I stand for something and that is love. I love so many people and so many people love me that I don't need people that hate. I have many family and friends who are gay, straight, every color, and while I might not share these traits and I might not agree with everything they do it is not my job to judge. I can have an opinion just like anyone else but the moment I condemn them I have lost focus of why I am here. I live in Orange County, CA and there is so much racism here it's sickening. I hear the jokes and comments all the time and I've grown tired of debating with these people but I will continue to do it till I'm dead! Like I said feel free to delete me from your life I embrace that.

Tear em up

Things are getting crazy people are too excited. I hope the madness has subsided. I'm slowly thinking of the past and in the future me and everything else have collided. From the best I am not a part of. From the nucleus i am divided. A cataclysmic,oc activity I have collided. The hydrogen collider is spinning. Leaving while I'm ahead is tempting. Your girl And a drink and a beer double fisting. What good does it do to wish on the past, better to be the future to put all your energy rotting!

Cold World

Ill never forget her so I had to leave her. Fuck that ill never let a woman know I need her. I'm too damaged for all of that I'm taking a vacation distant living in Belize. I miss the Cali green the palm trees. I'm tired of listening to these. Why do I make myself feel like I'm not ready to take on this belief. I know the pressure and the burden is about to be mine. If I turn my back and change my mind I won't only be the problem continue to be inadequate and all the rest will have to play the victims. And wait for someone else to realize its could be their time. I only got one wish when I leave I hope it's an abyss. I don't know if I can handle hearing about how I mishandled didn't understand simple bits, it's all data. My seismic gaffe could affect the planet. Live your life I don't care how you spend it. When I come to play I come to win it but I don't want to be the only one enjoying the spoils. Whatever the game whether it be poker and I'm Doyle playing with Hoyle. Or Milton bradly and I'm the man on the horse buying up all the property, I barely realized I've got enough to buy Baltic. I'm a simple man from the gutter. I don't need boardwalk I'd rather trade it for 4 railroads, I need a way to transport and I never liked New York.

Breaking Bread

I don't give a damn what you think of me I went to Raised in the streets university. I don't have a plan I'm learning as I go you see. Ill never satisfy you adequately. But I guarantee when this is released you might say whatever you want. But what you won't be saying is he went quietly. I don't own no guns but i made this place my home. Riding these Cali streets puffing on a padron, sipping patron. I rock this like I wrote the script for this life we live. I'm in a zone. Couldn't pick a better time to be Holding my own. Real ass homies I'm feeling like I'm almost all alone. The time to adhere and be a role model a steer. Most people scattered any responsibility for this and they work hard to steer clear. I don't know if its fear reluctance to spend the rest of eternity owned. We ain't nothing but energy well I guess some of us are barely that I suppose. Positive or negative we hide behind our clothes. Doesn't matter what you know, perception has taken over the views you actually hold.

Tossin Bottles

Man, I dont give a fuck, I'm poor and down on my luck. I'm ballin on a budget so forget the Kendall jackson more like 2 buck chuck for me. I'm living like I got a fatal disease. Trying to fit everything into one day but I aint scurred. smoke in my lungs dreams and visions in my eyes. Maybe if i died someone might say something nice about me. But I don't worry bout that, me myself and i enjoy each others company. Hear the sub, am i speaking clearly. Here yee, here yee, little foggy yes the visionz blurry. sometimes the good and the bad get blurred. I don't know who it was that you preferred. But I showed up and they flocked like a herd, bunch of bunnies. I"m like a bear looking for honeys. Jump in front of me dont you dare. I'm hungry as fuck. Never cut in front of me when I'm in the buffet homey.

In this game it's like you combined the tortoise and the hare. But im gettin old like clinton portis. Pretty soon I'll be suffering from shortness of breath. I'm a breath of fresh air. I'm in a zone. even though my own behavior I cant condone. Maybe I would have been better off if I wasn't raised in the jungle all alone. No love, no hugs, liquor store playin dig dug. Lucky i didn't get plugged. Maybe fucked. I can honestly say my bitch mom she sucked. this day once and for all I'm gonna move on. Never be one that refuses to let go and can't move on. Holding on to those bad memories like a college kid or me holding on to the bong. As soon as I'm done here I might as well just be gone.

My ideas so trippy, always use skippy, playing board games with the kids but im a little tipsy. A cocktail and a smoke always helps me cope. These dreams more like nightmares. I cant imagine, I'll shoot my way out before they try to put the gavel down put me in the slammer. I'm already living in hell add to it people trying to get in my ass I'd rather ok I can get candid. It's not my fault what my mind did. Growing up with one life to live, I'll never be taken alive but hopefully I won't need to stay grinding. I just wish people could treat me kindly. I aint got nothing but love for all of you. But seems like life is getting crazy people are living violently. Make the decision with me. Let's move on from the bad memories and take one step forward to eternity!

Cain and Abel

Some of us Are Cain others of us abel. Im barely able to be a part of This society we live in is fake like a fable. I'm a bust out my stable. Sometimes I want to disconnect myself like unplugging the network cable. Some people are still running cat 5. I'm already passed fibre. I want to bring us back to reality with every fiber of my being. Maybe I'm seeing things as too simple. Ill never kill nobody but sometimes my anger. This passion that burns within might causees me danger. I got no ill will towards nobody. I can't expect anything from none of you so I should expect to be treated the way you treat me like your a capitalist and I'm a way for you to make some money.

One Nation

One nation, indivisible. Got so much game should be criminal. If u hate on me thats understandable. But dont expect me to stop cause my desires insatiable. If this were the law id be the constable. Baddest horse ever to come out the stables. Like charles barkley says thats turrabul. Im the head master of this institution. Fuck being principal im the the chancellor. Sometimes you have to jump so u dont fall off the wagon. Jumped cause i heard a shot fell cause my foot got stuck but always one step ahead never draggin, everything happened as its supposed to but not always the way i planned it. ill never be the smartest on the planet. I dont have to force the issue i Kind of just let it happen. Not only a doctor but also a patient in this establishment. i aint talking about fake shit and not talking about faking it. Im talking about storming the castle and taking it. I might not still be a driver but im still in the game driving, installing, amd removing programming designing the platform. How do i get some service up in this bitch. Im not a founder of this game but ill help reshape it.

Flux capacitor

The flux capacitor has ceased to function. No lift, we've lost our gumption. Ok weve lost and were sucking. If we were a vacuum we'd have no suction.I don't consider myself an obstruction. I have an objection if that's your belief. I don't bring a smith and Wesson. Peace is the object of my obsession. But I don't object if my view you're not sharing. I don't need no weapon. Your gray area I might be tempting. My mind keeps drifting. These bitches I keep pimping. In a battleship you'll never sink my destroyer. I'll meet you in the foyer. Wait that don't make sense. It's foiled my plan, fouled. I hope I don't get debouled if I do I might complain. I'm insane we knew that I'm deranged. I was sick before I stepped on the damn plane. Your leg I might mame, ok that's lame but your ladies leg my brother I can't comprehend the dark nights I would spend. We've already had our outs, the rest of our lives our friendship will mend. Come join my battle group, pick your ship. And this life as we know it, we will Defend till its END!

Hurt

I read an article today about a woman who left her 5 year old alone at home while she went to the store. The 5 year old found a gun at the house and shot herself. It just happened to be the mother's birthday. I wish I was one of those people who could be detached from all of the hurt in this world while only focusing on my own needs and satisfaction. Unfortunately, I'm not one of those people. Things like this hurt me to my core physically. My chest hurts, my eyes water, and I envision the scene of this tragedy from start to finish. The mom making the crucial mistake of leaving her 5 year old daughter alone, the girl shooting herself and the moments before being curious as 5 year olds are. And the moment her mother returned home to find her precious 5 year old daughter laying on the ground dead next to the gun she left available for her daughter to find. Where will the positives in this event come from? I picture the life lost and the mother stuck blaming herself and also facing charges. As well as a life of solitude with a memory and guilt she will never forget or escape. I feel sad and the worst part is I'm almost alone in these thoughts. Because most people will either ignore it, celebrate it, condemn it, or refuse to enter the thought. The story didnt even mention the little girls name. Rest in Peace young child. In some ways you were spared the darkness that inhabits and runs this life.
http://www.cnn.com/2013/06/23/us/louisiana-girl-dead/index.html

Religion and common sense

As a person that was raised in a religious environment I don't consider myself an expert in religion but an expert in reality. I really believe that people use religion as a crutch to lean on or to blame. When someone is looking for a job they go home and they pray and leave it in God's hands. Look, God would want you to be happy in your life and will provide you with the intelligence, resourcefulness, and desire to find food, water, and shelter. But if you think he'll help you land that job you want that's laughable. It's your own drive and determination that will do that. If you look inside you have a conscience. That right there is your God right inside of you. If you're thinking really hard to make a decision and you have to force it then you probably made the wrong decision. When you're about to do something you feel might not be right then it probably isnt. I'm not the morale police. I've walked in on friends snorting coke and other things. Who am I to judge? I don't know what that person is dealing with and I don't have all of their answers. But I do know that I am not automatically inclined to do something because someone else does. Just like I have no right to judge them for what they are doing. If I do want to get involved then I better be ready to help without telling them what to do.

The problem with religion is that there is a group of people that show up on Sunday and sing a few songs, listen to a few bible verses, say praise God a few times, and then they feel entitled to act as if they have all of the answers. Just because you show up does not make you Jesus Christ. I understand that those specific individuals use church and religion to make themselves feel better about the life they're leading. How they're able to separate their life and treat people with less than respect while conducting the rest of their week but then magically become holy when they walk through those doors of the synagogue. If there are so many church going people then why are there so many people cursing each other out, flipping each other off, and treating each other less than humanely? It's because people lead double lives. People constantly tell me that I need to go to church more and take my kids to church more. I tell them that I live in church every day. I walk the walk. I'm not saying I'm a saint or anything even close. I have my troubles but what I do every day is treat people with respect and the way I want to be treated. I teach my kids the same thing. While they are excelling in a lot of areas people tend to treat them badly. I'm honestly not trying to brag or boast here but it's because of jealousy. I was one of those kids growing up. I moved from place to place never had a father and my mother left early on. It caused me numerous issues including; abandonment issues, low self esteem, anger, jealousy, and resentment. It's taken a lot of years just to identify a lot of these and will take more years to resolve if I ever do. 

I hope I never become one of those people who think they have all of the answers and stand up on their soap box preaching even though they've got skeletons in their closet they still havent cleaned out. Preaching to their brothers and sisters about living like Christ when they are only a shell of what he represented. I believe to truly be a leader and to live like Christ is so far from our imagination that the book of revelations is presented as a fact that will happen instead of a warning of what will come if we don't heal our earth and humanity. For someone to even begin to put their feet in those shoes they would have to shed all of society. They would have to not care about any possessions, perception, political correctness, money, power, esteem, greed, or peace. They would have to spend every day as a selfless desciple of humanity. Spreading the word of love, giving, sharing, and meditation. They would have to be able to walk into a room of white suprmecists and exclaim with excitement and love of how they love people of color and differences. These days I hear so much political correctness and perception and very little honesty and reality. I can barely be honest with my wife about my thoughts of infidelity and the acknowledgement that my flesh is weak. I'm only saying that we should live our lives every day with love, compassion, and humbleness instead of greed, judgementalness, and ego. Our economic system is Capitalism but why do we make that our way of life? It's because we worship money instead of a clean heart. If we spent our lives trying to reach a place where we have peace of mind and heart and less time reaching wealth, power, and esteem we could all work together to achieve a global connection. I didnt even mention war! If I could leave you with anything today it would be with the hope that instead of thinking you are the answer remember one simple thing. You do not have all of the answers so "Lead and be led".

We're not family (poetry)

Besides music i have no abilities. Maybe its my disabilities, but not my lack of credibility. Maybe its my over abundance of humility. Or how this playa ran the whole facilities. I cant believe you brotherfucked me like i was a fool. We'll never be family were destined to be adversaries cause you used me like a tool. But you cant cause me ills cause i wrote this program for scoundrels like you. Ill write a sql query and like a old log ill truncate you. Your the student and im not only the teacher im the entire school.


Retribution is not in my dna, calling you out on the social network was a fraction of what i could have said. Vendictive doesnt dwell in these streets im half tempted to explain. Fuck it you dont know me by now youll never know me. If caring about people and treating others like you want to be treated was cool, id be a dr. But using people, political correctness, "just business", are terms we worship in this society even though its not cool. I could weave an entire web, i dont care what you call it your full of shit and tit for tat its complicated. I dont care if you weave it, put it in a spindle or a spool.

Lead with me (poetry)

My life Is unfolding, Lets hope I'm not as fragile as a camping chair. I have my moments but I'm good no great at fittin components. I could crush my opponents, but I guess that's where you'll say I'm pretty square. Wait I meant kinda never mind you can't keep up with me sometimes life is bizarre. I remember this night at a bar never mind I remember every night. I'm like jaws catching information even when I'm spacin and you think I'm doing nothing but relaxin. I'll never go einhorn tossing pedacter. I'm not even a good actor I leave that to my son. The sun comes out every day. I don't need it to be sunny to have a good day. Come chill with me you'll see what I mean I work with people nobody should work or bow down to me. We all have a job I'm just the only one that didn't become a snob. Wait there is a few else. They're my peers I'd never treat people like elves. Dwarfs, or minis, or could you imagine a hobbit. But don't pretend you can hang in the ring with me I'm not competitive. I'm deranged don't follow me. Come lead with me. People will have to listen to what we say I'm not perfect you can decide whether you want to be able to obey the one law. Treat everyone how you want to be treated, more specifically, hold yourself accountable and you can help lead mankind eternally.