Avoiding Entitlement and compromise with family

This is long, my apologies........

I give up. I don't know how else to say it. Sometimes we just have to admit we're powerless against something. I just can't do it any longer. I haven't been able to for a while now, yet I continue to will myself to do it. I'm not trying to paint myself as some kind of saint. I'm far from it and don't even actually hide it. I've admitted to being a pig on many occasions. I have changed a lot over the years. But some things I either don't want to change or maybe I don't even realize it's an issue. Coming from humble beginnings my goals were often tempered. It wasn't until I met a woman who already had a child where I changed. It was always inevitable though. My desire of women and my propensity to try and rescue was a disaster from the beginning. Meeting this woman who already had a child spoke to me subconsciously. At 19 years old my mind not yet mature enough to understand the significance of the situation. A combination of love and desires and before you know it we are a family. The three of us against the world is how I looked at it. Soon after, a young son. Then 23 months later another son. Before you know it we're a family of 5 and I'm only 23 years old. From that day forward I have slowly, very slowly I became a better person. I've cheated, lied, drove drunk. Been completely clueless as a husband and a father. But I never gave up. When I fall down I get back up. It motivates me to work harder and learn faster. Before I knew it I'm 40 years old and I have kids that are 22, 19, and 17 years old. I can't believe how fast time has gone by. I've learned so much and I am so thankful for the lessons and love. I've gone from an angry, insecure, naive, child to a much more aware individual. But I can't do it any longer. I can't be daddy anymore. Especially since my wife is never on my team when it comes to my kids. 

Look, I'll never get any or deserve any father of the year awards. But sometimes parenting isn't about awards. Sometimes you have to be the bad guy, because kids don't know what they don't know. If i can have one thing that I have stood by is that I truly love and want the best for my children. When you have a spouse who does not agree with what that means, the journey can then become arduous. While I always dreamed of a white picket fence like everyone else did I never actually believed it was possible. It's one of the reasons I never wanted kids before meeting my wife. I'm a sabotager. I didn't know it then but i was. A sabotager is someone who instead of accepting happiness tries to sabotage it before it ends for other reasons. In my mind I wasn't good enough. Family didn't have enough money, wasn't smart enough, tall enough, white enough, funny enough. Instead of realizing i had met one of the coolest people in Hawaii and could truly be and deserve to be, happy. Instead i pushed her away with all my power. Cheating and drinking, partying and working. Everything except building my partnership. When our kids began to grow it was easy. Kids just want to make you proud and happy. They don't actually want to disappoint you. You guide them and teach them. Love them and appreciate them. Respect them and they will adore you. I began to have these little friends that were also my kids. Playing games like Monopoly and Risk and learning on the fly. Coaching each of their sports teams and even letting my daughter paint my toe nails. Teaching them to walk, talk, read, fish, bat, snowboard, drive, etc. while also trying to explain to them the gray areas and the importance of work ethic. At times I'm intense and other times i cant be serious. 

My wife is Disneyland mom. She just wants them to love her. She can't stand it if they're mad at her. An example is that my 19 year old son has two gym passes and i have none. He has an LA fitness pass and full use of the facilities at UC Irvine. She got it for him when he was in high school and he told her he needed to lift weights more to get more playing time on the basketball team. My voice saying that he should maybe just practice harder and longer and that he didn't need a gym pass. All of a sudden I'm an asshole of a dad and my son ends up with a gym pass anyways. What do you do if you're in a relationship with someone who does it anyways, even if you say no. I sometimes think it's because we're from different sides of the tracks. In my opinion she's a bit entitled and has an attitude like she's owed something. It somehow worked out to where we're complete opposites so our message ended up in the middle somewhere. Although my sons are a little on the entitled side they have good hearts and seem to be healthy mentally. I try to keep it real with my kids so trust me, they tell me when they dont agree with my methods.

That right there is why I'm done. Some parents are gone their kids entire childhood. They come back when the kids an adult and are still loved. Other parents get divorced and have visitation agreements involving their kids. Although we did get divorced for a couple of years. We remarried and have actually been married longer the second time than we were the first time. But i think the gig is up now. I've compromised and sacrificed as much as I think i can. The reason i know is because i'm slowly disappearing into depression. I feel like my life is out of control because it is. At any time my wife has the power to destroy me. She could hypothetically call the cops and tell them i'm being erratic and i would have to leave. Lately, I've been growing frustrated with my children. Not so much my daughter. Although she's not biologically mine she's the most like me. She makes things happen. She doesn't wait for something she goes and gets it. I've taught her she's responsible for her own future and success. My regret is that maybe i didnt let her tell me who she was as a person. Instead trying to teach her what's required to thrive in our society. She was a girly girl and i put Laker track suits on her and took her snowboarding. She needs to relax more though. She's way too serious and im afraid she's not enjoying the moment. But my sons just don't get it sometimes. My 19 year old has to be reminded constantly to take the trash out. That and picking up dog shit are his only jobs. He drives a car i bought, i pay his gas, insurance, phone, gym pass. In two weeks he'll have a macbook pro. His mom will ensure that happens. He'll still fail to take the trash out. He'll still go over a month without picking up dog shit. The accountability is gone. It's only entitlement now. I owe it to him now somehow? When i turn his phone off i'm the bad guy and my wife and i argue. For years i didn't care. I would stick by my values. I would hold them accountable even though she was saying i was ridiculous, right in front of the kids. No unified front at all. Nights sleeping in my car because i blew up and screamed. Upset because the trash cans were not taken out again and now they are full with trash day a week away. When i had my chevy silverado it wasn't too bad. But with a sedan and an suv it's uncomfortable. I won't bring my friends into it so i cant stay at their houses. If she found out she'd make them regret it. Been there done that. But there i would be, alone in my car in the walmart parking lot. They're at home in the warm house hugging and she's saying she loves them and will always be there for them. Yet I'm the one grinding every day to take them to school, going to work, coming home many times to cook. All of a sudden once again im the bad guy and shes the hero. All because i said he didn't need a gym pass and she bought it anyways. Why do i not deserve enough respect to just be talked to on many things. It's as if she enjoys doing things that she knows will upset me. Is it payback for things i did way back? 

If it is I'm over it. I'm old enough and wise enough to know once the respect is gone it's gone. I've been there and done that. She's still a beautiful woman and I'm amazed at how beautiful i still think she still is. But you get to a certain age and it doesn't matter. I want real. I want someone who values what i value but is still an individual with dreams and goals. But that would be if i was to go back in time and do it again. I had my chance, two actually. I fucked it up, royally. I also have 3 awesome kids that i love and want to be there for. But once you go down the entitlement road it's hard to change it. Eventually all good things come to an end. My youngest son is a junior in high school and turns 18 in january. I hope i have the patience, courage, knowledge, and vision to make the right choices to ensure i do what's sincerely best for my family.

Cleanse society of evil

This is a subject that many don't want to touch or discuss. It's even more politically incorrect to discuss than politics and religion. Unfortunately, while we live in our bubbles thinking of rainbows and butterflies our society continues to slide further into the depths of desperation. I can't believe how I'm a minority in my opinion on how to treat violent criminals. How can we release these evil people? Should we not respect and appreciate our peaceful citizens by protecting them from the evil ones? I just read a story about a man that was mad at another woman for not sleeping with him so he raped her, set her on fire, and left. He went to trial and received 12 years in prison. Now he'll be out in a few years to improve upon his skills of rape and murder so that he doesn't get caught next time. Let's be real, prisons don't rehabilitate people. Instead they condone violence and even the prison guards many times support the violent environment. I will add the links at the bottom of these sickening stories.

I will never understand how any person, especially religious fanatics want to protect evil people. They claim that these evil souls are God's children. That we do not have the right to judge because we too have sinned. Look, I'm not advocating for people to be put to death for crimes other than violent ones. With 8 billion people on this planet why do we not value the innocent ones enough to eliminate the bad ones?

In addition I read a story yesterday how murderers are allowed to get married in prison and father and mother children? What the fuck is our problem? That entire scenario does not make sense! We allow murderers to write letters and find insecure troubled women to have children with? Can you imagine the warped minds of these women and what they are teaching these children they're bringing into the world?

Here is the lates story I read. This woman and her boyfriend decide to adopt children. They adopt a 14 year old girl. Not with the thoughts of being great parents but with the goal of raping and murdering her together. Now, if you believe people should be allowed to live on this planet with thoughts in their mind of adopting a little child with the plan of raping her and murdering her because of a fantasy then you and I do not agree. Not only do we not agree but I believe you to be either a sympathizer or that you have committed these offenses and you feel like a hypocrite for wanting them dead. This couple carried out their plot. They adopted the girl and then Jacob Sullivan proceeded to rape the 14 year old girl, drug her, and leave her to die. After that didn't kill her Jacob Sullivan strangled her until she died. They then dismembered her body and threw it out like trash. Am I the only one who believes the only way to convince people to not do this is to show the consequences of death for these acts? What is wrong with disposing of these people to cleanse our gene pool? I'm not talking about race or gender. I don't care what color you are or if you are a man or a woman. I'm simply stating that we are already running out of natural resources on this planet. Yet, while innocent children starve guys like Charles Manson are given 3 meals a day and are allowed to get married and have sex! What the fuck is wrong with us as a society? Get rid of these fuckers! These are some of the reasons I don't fit in to society any longer. I don't believe in rainbows and butterflies. We need to be harsh sometimes to protect our families. Here is a picture of Jacob Sullivan and his girlfriend. Both of them sick pieces of shit that should be buried somewhere with no fan fare.

*One more thing and then I'll stop. If some murderer, extremist, racist decides to come after my family and hurt one of them? I won't be sitting in court crying. I guarantee you that I will go after every single one of their family members until their entire family is wiped out. Then, I'll sit in court feeling completely content. Then, maybe people will think twice before hurting others. Maybe people will turn in their family members when they are violent. Maybe when these murderers are reading about their entire family being wiped out they'll think twice before doing it again. But until then people will think twice about committing these acts. Instead of being celebrities who barely do any time? Their entire existence will be wiped out!


https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/true-crime/wp/2017/01/09/mom-boyfriend-plotted-a-rape-murder-fantasy-that-left-her-teen-daughter-dead-prosecutor-says/?utm_term=.b9607488cf63

Cindy Stowell

Every once in a while we get to witness a truly remarkable person. I read this story a few days ago about the passing of Cindy Stowell shortly after she finished appearing on and winning 6 times on Jeopardy! I watched all six episodes that she won and the seventh episode where she comes short of winning. Alex Trebek spoke about her after the seventh episode. The quote is in the attached story. She was incredibly intelligent on many different subjects. She was also amazingly calm during the entire seven episodes. composed and gentle I couldn't believe this woman was dominating Final Jeopardy for 6 episodes like a bad ass boss! Her resolve was compelling and I was instantly enthralled by her. She lived in Austin Texas and at only a year older than I am she was a Science content developer. She never once mentions it on the show and never shows any kind of sadness or emotions. I hope to someday be as strong as Cindy Stowell.
Look at that smile:)



https://www.yahoo.com/tv/alex-trebek-pays-heartbreaking-tribute-143800110.html

Richard Spencer and Alternative Right

Some of what Richard Spencer of Alternative Right says is accurate. I also agree with a couple pieces of it. But, I cannot support his extreme views on color. Personally, I believe it should have more to do with culture than color. Richard Spencer refers to himself as European. Well, just like he says to people of other colors go home. In another part he refers to himself as American. Which is it? America was built by immigrants. The American culture exists because so many immigrants came here to escape the problems with their own countries. To enjoy freedoms not allowed in other countries. Unless you're a native American you're talking about taking over a country your ancestors were allowed to come here to be free. Now, you want to declare that you believe that simply because someone is white they are better than anyone of any other color? I believe in the American Culture and was part of a military that fought for our country to defend it. I am a middle class American who pays 30 percent of my pay to taxes. My kids attend school in Orange County, CA which have amazing schools but also contains the "Orange Curtain". There is a large group of people that are racist. When they see a black person they make jokes or assume negatives about that person. As a half white half brown person I guess I don't see myself the way others see me. I walk into a meeting at an airport where I'm being looked at as the expert in my industry and some people don't like it. That represents immigrants taking over the country to them. So in a way I can't fault someone like Richard Spencer for hating because of that naive feeling. The problem is that I represent exactly what he should be embracing. Instead, he spits out some idealistic rhetoric about how whites conquered this country and thus have the right to define what it's about. This is the exact reason why people say Richard Spencer is merely a 5 minute of fame type of individual we see constantly. Look, bring it Spencer. If you think you and your low IQ white supremacists will overtake a country full of a race that supports Land of the free and home of the brave I dare you to try. I'm a peaceful man that just wants to love and create more love. I truly do believe love is the answer. While I still struggle to feel love all day every day I still believe it's the answer. Things like Pride are the anti-love.

Spencer creates division among a race. He talks about the white race but if he spent just a few minutes learning about the facts he'd realize there is only 1 race. That's the human race. Color is not a race. Color is a pigment created by where your ancestors lived their lives. When people first migrated from Africa many went to Europe. Well, many parts of Europe have little sun and therefore many of it's residents have pale colored skin that evolved with it's environment. While people that stayed in Africa where it's mostly sunny remained dark to adapt to the climate in that country. When you visit a country you can simply look at it's climate and then at the people and instantly understand why they are the color they are. That's it! That's as deep as color goes. Instead of color Richard Spencer should look at culture. He's correct that many people maybe should look to a location that shares their culture. But to think that color automatically makes someone superior to another color? That is absolutely lunacy and to me shows how naive and uncultured someone is. Let's say a person if from a small town with no black people. Well, now they have no interaction so anything they hear becomes fact to them. But if you actually take the time to learn about people in different places you'll learn there are wonderful people in every color. Stay with me please. I know I run on and on but I have a point. Let's say you have a neighborhood in California for example. A white family and black family live next door to each other for 3 generations. Don't you think that those families will be similar after 3 generations? There may be some distinctions that remain in their families through culture. But, after attending the same schools and society they'll probably share many similarities. That's why I say that people like Richard Spencer are a problem for society not a solution. I've researched him and looked at his background. He's educated and speaks articulately. But he's completely loony when it comes to his goals.

Spencer wants to have all colors simply go back to their original countries. Unless it's white European. White Europeans he says should be allowed to live with their own color here in the United States. How in any kind of reality does that make any sense? I respect his opinion and he's allowed to have any opinion he wants. That's the difference between me and others. I believe people should be allowed to feel how they want. Instead, our society believes in political correctness. That means that you can feel however you want as long as you don't tell anyone about it. Unless how you feel is acceptable to political correctness. Then, you're good to go. But what if you just don't believe that a man should identify as a woman? Well, these days you better not say that at work or in any public environment unless you want fury unleashed on you be all the politically correct police. I believe that people should be allowed to not agree. Doesn't mean that it's right just that they have the freedom to feel however they want. I cannot identify with someone who was born a woman but identifies with being a man but I can definitely empathize with them. While it might not make sense to me I can only imagine the persecution and hate a person must endure for identifying that way. But why should anyone else care what that individual does? Why should I have the right to care what happens in that person's personal life? If everyone had the same opinion then where would free thinking and creativity go? Instead, I should be able to listen to Richard Spencer's opinion on white supremacy and then intelligently respond with my disagreements. If I am not educated enough to speak on it then I should let someone else who is respond. Too many times we also have opinions when we either do not know the facts or where we don't know enough to have an opinion. In color I believe I have some education in the matter. As an only child between my mother and father I have a white half brother and a half black sister. I am half brown. I only say brown because I do not know my father and his name is not on my birth certificate. I think he's Mexican but I don't know that. My mother is originally of Scottish descent and is a white girl that was born in Texas and grew up in California.

I have also lived with many colors throughout my life. I was born in Pomona and lived there between 5th grade and 7th grade. I lived in Hacienda heights from birth to second grade. I lived in San Bernardino from 2nd grade to 4th grade. Whittier for a summer before 5th grade and then Phelan from 7th grade to high school graduation. During that time I had to run home from both Crips and Bloods in Pomona, Cholos in Whittier, while also trying to stand up for myself against them and racist white people. At no time though after experiencing all this did I ever consider disliking any color because of a few bad people. I remember a black girl that I liked in 5th grade named Anissa Hill. Her mother and father both had good careers. They had more money than my family did. Yet, my uncle who was basically my dad told me that he better never see me walking next to a "nigger" again. It changed my life forever. Until then I don't think I had ever really seen racism. I remember how sweet and innocent Anissa Hill was. To automatically assume she is no good because of her color hurt my mind. I believe I have a lot of experience with hate, racism, poverty, and segregation to give a solid opinion of it's affects. I can only imagine how my sister Michelle feels about it. As a half black half white girl she endured much worse than I ever did. After my dad saying the N word I actually turned to my sister and wondered what she felt about what she just heard. But I knew better than to ask her where he could hear. But I can tell you that I had to fight many people that disrespected my sister with race hating words. At no time did it cause me to assume all white people were racist and filled with hate. But as an American I know I have biases and hate towards people that I assume are the same as someone I encountered negatively. It's ok to have the feelings but without us being able to talk it out how are we supposed to learn?

I agree with Richard Spencer about the one sided nature of racism. If black and brown can have pride why not white? Why should you not be able to be proud of your color without being racist. While I believe pride is one of the problems with many things I also believe in freedom of expression. Be proud if that's important to you. But don't hate. I have no pride in my color. I try not to have any pride at all. I try to embrace humility and love. My color does not define me although it might have some things to do with my personality. For example: I was raised mostly by white people. We ate American type food but dang it if I don't instinctively want to mix everything and put it in a burrito. I love tacos! Should I be ashamed of that? No, but I have black friends that will never be seen with a watermelon, grape kool aid, or fried chicken just to avoid the stereotype. I don't really care. I'll put a lawnmower in my truck and munch on some tamales like a Boss! If people want to judge me go for it. I'd prefer they actually said it to my face. But instead our society believes in smiling in your face and talking negatively behind your back. Anyways, I just wanted to vent about how I believe people like Richard Spencer are misguided but in some ways I can understand why they are.

The media

At 40 years old I have a completely different perspective than I did when I was 20. I believe I am only starting to truly learn the power of media. I used to eat up the information being fed to me. Now, I do my own research and compare the information being reported by multiple sources.

I've found that the news changes based on the media outlet reporting the situation. It really became apparent during the 2016 Presidential election. CNN, MSNBC, FOX, all have different perspectives. In my opinion instead of telling people how they should think, they should instead report data. Let the people interpret the information themselves. It is obvious that CNN is heavily Democrat while Fox is Republican. The hosts for each of these networks were hired because they share the vision of the people that run each network.

Why immigration does not work from some countries

Although people associate race with their disdain for other people. It's actually a very shallow view of discrimination. The real factor people should look at is culture.

The reason I don't approve of bringing in hundreds of thousand people from Syria is culture. I know many people of different colors that actually have the same culture while I know many of the same color that do not have the same culture. I have Muslim neighbors from Iran who are respectful and peaceful people. I can hear their Muslim prayers from my house as I recognize it from my time in the Middle East. But while they are Muslim they also enjoy American culture. They love American movies and spend much of their free time tending their beautiful yard that is full of fruit trees and gardens. I admire their love for fresh fruit and aesthetically pleasing work they've done to their yard. The husband Sam is a handy man and him and I have spoke many times. I've helped him carry things in from his car including an aquarium. He shares his pomegranates with me. I have enjoyed our interaction. While his wife is very quiet she is extremely pleasant and leaves every morning to what I assume is work.

There are other people from the Middle East that I don't get along with. These are individuals who do not approve our Western culture. They are often not very nice and openly criticize us and laugh while speaking their languages to each other. They only associate and speak to their own culture and people while distancing and avoiding interaction with Americans. They also make little effort to learn the language even though they expect to stay in America long term. While I don't expect people visiting America to necessarily learn the language I do if someone expects to live here. If I intended to move permanently to another country I would definitely do my best to learn their language. I would assimilate.

As a country why would we want people who disapprove of our culture and don't like us to come here permanently?

How anyone could want hundreds of thousands of people from Syria to come to America without knowing first if they fit in here is surprising to me. They'd be better off finding a place somewhere where they would be comfortable and happy. The gray area here is that there are different cultures that can fit in peacefully without problems. But to let thousands of people in mass in is a mistake in my opinion. It only creates more tension internally in our country than already exists. It also strains current social programs that are already on the verge of collapse. They take money from social security which I have paid into for over 30 years to give to those programs. Leaving me without the program that I have paid into with over 30 years of hard work.

I'm of Mexican descent. For hundreds of years people from Mexico have been coming to America from Mexico. For many generations they felt privileged to come to a country with so many freedoms. When I was a boy the older generation would encourage the younger generation to speak english and assimilate. Although there is a problem in the US with many Mexican immigrants abusing social programs by having more kids than they can afford in order to receive more money from these social programs. US citizens who have been in this country for many generations continue to do the same thing. I blame the system mostly for this problem not the people abusing it. But as a whole I have not found that these cultures of people hate Americans and everything we believe in. They don't threaten to destroy us and bomb our people by claiming their religion tells them to do it.

I blame this on political correctness. Instead of people speaking how they feel and think they say what they what they think others will want them to feel and say. Media and extreme liberal views convince them to endorse this mass immigration without ever looking deeply into the results of this experiment. There is nothing wrong in my opinion with disagreeing with allowing this to happen. Eventually it'll create an internal civil war which is probably the plan of many that support this. While many are right now thinking I am paranoid we are already witnessing many violent events by people who currently live in America. Some who were born here. While there are examples of Americans with no affiliation to these cultures also committing these acts they are few compared to those claiming to do it because of their culture. I could easily argue that out of hundreds of thousands of people at least a few from a place that widely hate our country will not only empathize but attempt to carry out violence against our people.

In a country that already has issues with violence why would some of government so strongly support bringing in hundreds of thousands of people with no questions asked? While many in our country blindly support this plan missions more oppose it. Many will blindly say that many of us are racist and oppose immigration this is simply not the case. Many people have already been affected by violence at the hands of these haters and you can't blame them for opposing these plans. Others fear what could happen not because we oppose immigration but because we oppose the forced acceptance of more people that hate us into this country. I will always support immigration by those with cultures who want to live peacefully with our freedoms I will never support allowing people into this country who hate our culture and want to replace our culture with their own. If their culture and countries are so great, then they should stay there or return to their country. If not adapt and support the cultures that live peacefully in such a wonderful free country.

Why it's not right for millennials to riot because Donald Trump won but protesting is a right

I don't understand the current situation in America. I can understand protesting if something happens that is against humanity. But when a candidate other than yours wins in a democracy and you riot? All you're doing is saying that you do not agree with democracy. Sure, I've had questions of whether the system or voting is rigged. But when I sat there Tuesday watching the election results I realized how close the vote was. It showed me that I was not crazy. For months I was being told by the media that Hillary Clinton was going to win easily against Donald Trump. I couldn't understand that. How could people vote for someone so corrupt? But I was prepared to accept it. I wouldn't have been happy but as an American all I ask is that it is fair, just, and democratic. What Hillary supporters have shown since the winner was announced is that they are willing to accept the results as long as it's their candidate that wins. I heard over and over from democrat leaders that when Hillary won all Trump supporters should accept it and then all come together. But when it ended up being the opposite those same people didn't accept it. 

My biggest problem with many of these people is that they don't really do any research into why they're voting for Hillary Clinton. They listen to her speak and see her smile and they take it at face value. They don't accept that she has done many things that are not in the best interest of America. But even with that I would have accepted if she would have won. I would have peacefully explained why I didn't agree and I would have learned as much as possible about future candidates from both parties that I could vote for. I would not riot or protest. The same people rioting would mostly run and hide if there was a war or revolution in this country. They don't understand the sacrifice that was made for the freedoms that they have. I heard one girl say that people have to die to change things. That's not true. With the sources of communication we have there are other options. We can all agree on many things that need to be done. It can be done peacefully. These young kids have no idea what they're asking for. They have never seen war. They have no idea how it is in countries where it is actually unfair. Or places that are at war. I have been in the military and in many countries that have no freedoms. Many countries where women are treated less than men are. In America women have all the freedoms men do. 

I'm not a Republican and I'm not a Democrat. I voted for George Bush in 2000 and I voted for Obama in 2008. I'm not saying I was right and in many ways I was not smart enough and still am not wise enough to know the right answer. Voting for Donald Trump could end up being a mistake. But I do know that he identified some major problems in this country. He spoke about people losing jobs in the rust belt. Deductibles and premiums skyrocketing for many of us. The irresponsibility of bringing in hundreds of thousands of Syrian refugees into this country without knowing who they are or their feelings about America. Fixing the problems with our borders. All of these things spoke to not just me but millions of Americans. I'm not a white man. The statements being made that this is "whitelash" for a black president is so unfair. I don't believe Hillary's message resonated with as many people along with them not being able to trust her. Those things hurt her as much as anything. It's possible that Trump will not work out. That's as much my fault as anyone elses. We all spend too much time watching Netflix and playing video games and too little time paying attention to things that matter. Most of us don't spend enough time researching and learning as much as possible about these candidates and then complain when things get worse. 

 Unfortunately for Hillary Clinton she only has herself to blame. Hillary has never had the best interest of America in mind when she does business. The fact that she had an email server is not the important part. It's what the emails revealed. It revealed her pay to play methods. It revealed that she was attempting to negotiate with the FBI to unclassify her emails in exchange for staffing in different places. Once Benghazi happened she ordered all emails, devices, etc destroyed. Then, she lied and tried to say she never heard anything about Benghazi. Her staff pleaded the 5th. Chelsea used the Clinton foundation as her personal checking account to pay for her wedding. At what point do these types of things disqualify someone from becoming President? It had nothing to do with Clinton being a woman or white men. I'm not a white man. The Clinton campaign worked hard to uncover dirt on Trump. All they found was one video from over ten years ago where he made improper comments about women. I don't condone it but I will admit that I have made similar comments as have many people I have known. Especially in my younger years.

Let me also say that I am no fan of Trump. Actually quite the opposite. I do not like Trump. I feel he's a trust fund baby. But when he talked about what he wanted to do as President it spoke to me and millions of others. Heavily flawed just like the other candidate I don't pretend that he is perfect. If he would have lost I would have accepted it. I would have worked harder to find the correct candidate to vote for next time and learned. I would have never been so arrogant to think that because my candidate didn't win that I deserved to riot and refuse to accept the results of an election. A process that has worked for hundreds of years. These children protesting have no idea what they're doing. They do not have the experience or knowledge to make a decision to protest or riot.