Road Rage leads to the death of a 4 year old little girl

Yesterday a 4 year old girl (Lilly Garcia) was shot in the head while in the backseat of her father's truck. While her father (Alan Garcia) and another man (Tony Torrez) cut each other off and argued she probably sat scared in the backseat wondering what was going on. Tony Torrez then pulled out a gun and started shooting at the truck. One of the bullets hit little Lilly in the head and her 7 year old brother said to his father "she's bleeding". The little girl died and many peoples lives will never be the same because of it. This happened in Albuquerque, NM on the I-40. If you've never been to Albuquerque it's a fun city. There is a lot to do, especially if you're coming from one of the more isolated areas around there like I lived in Durango, CO. But it's also a very violent place. Just about every day on the news you'd see some sad situation and wonder what's wrong with people? I wanted to get tv from Denver because I figured it had to be better than to see what was happening in Albuquerque. We used to travel to Albuquerque from Durango because there was more for our family to do. There's a space museum, zoo, bowling alleys, and many places to eat. My favorite place to eat is downtown and it's a Mexican restaurant called Garcia's. But with all of it's positives it's like visiting Santa Ana, CA. you're fine unless you encounter the wrong person or group.

 Many people these days are angry, unhappy, insecure, helpless, and hopeless. It's just a micro example of a bigger problem going on in our society today. Life is getting harder for everyone. There are more people now and so more that need jobs, housing, food, water. Meaning it's a bit harder to obtain those items. If you get cut off on the freeway and cursed at and your first instinct is to grab a gun? Well, you might be a few of the descriptions I put above. I hope that nobody and nothing is worth going to prison or dying for but I know that's not true. If someone was to harm my family? They better watch out. But besides that situation I try to stay away from anger and violence. Doesn't mean it was always that way or that I don't slip from time to time and flip someone off. But in Albuquerque there is much violence and a the amount of Hispanics in the area is high so it does not surprise me that a Hispanic was involved. Many Hispanics are raised in big families so the amount of attention they get is small so sometimes they are insecure and seeking attention. Also, many are first or second generation from Mexico or other countries and so they don't have the financial resources that many people around them do. This also causes insecurity and sometimes resentment. I grew up that way. Always insecure because I was wearing shoes from Payless hoping that we would at least go to Big 5 for shoes. When I was even younger my insecurities would cause me to act out and be offensive before I had to be defensive. If you don't know these feelings it's sometimes hard to empathize with people in these situations.

Even though I empathize does not mean I sympathize for guys like Tony Torrez. I'm not a judge but looking at his past he's had many run ins with the law for violence even once with a gun. Many times people like Tony will continue to be violent until they are forced to confront those issues. I was forced to confront my anger issues and I'm happy for that. I didn't know what I didn't know meaning I was looking at things from the wrong perspective. When you change your point of view it can greatly affect the way you see things. Now, Tony will be doing time in prison. If you've ever been to prison or know someone who has you know that prison does not rehabilitate people. They might want you to think that but it's far from the truth. Even many guards are part of a system that abuses every part of what it was designed for. Guards will allow a new inmate to be abused by other inmates or will abuse them themselves. As soon as you get into population in prison you are forced to join a group based on ethnicity. Let me correct myself, you do have a choice but good luck saying no. On top of that all the criminals are put together to conspire and come up with ways to not get caught again if they get out. That's an entirely different topic though.

This is just another example of why it's hard to smile when every day we read about situations like this.

Here is a link to this story on Yahoo.

http://news.yahoo.com/fatal-shooting-4-old-began-traffic-lane-dispute-080037012.html

Tony Torrez - Once he finishes his sentence and is let out. Is he rehabilitated? In my personal opinion if you take someones life with murder you don't deserve another chance. A 4 year old doesn't get another day so why should this guy?

A dark society

I've always been a little too sensitive and emotional. Especially for a man. Men are taught to be strong and don't cry. When a little girl falls and skins her knee everyone drops everything to run to her. You hear things like "oh you poor baby", "are you ok princess", and "want me to kiss it and make it better". A boy does the same thing and they're told "boys don't cry", "it's just a scratch", and "man up". So when men and women grow up and try to get married and settle down they have a completely opposite way of thinking. Women want a man who's sensitive but also strong. To succeed in the American society you have to be willing to capitalize which is to take advantage. People admire those that are willing to take advantage of an opportunity even if it's not best for everyone. Now, that mentality has become a way of life. For someone like me, I would love nothing more than peace, unity, and love among everyone. But like Johnny Cash once said, "till times are brighter I'm the man in black". That is exactly how I feel in my life. Yes, on a daily basis I smile and look at the positives. I'm giddy and feel blessed just to be where I am today. Every day people reassure me that there is still hope for our civilization. I'm reassured by their actions, not their words. But I'm also discouraged by all of the hate, judgement, violence, poverty, and confusion.

I was upset that my baseball team lost and then I hear a fan was beaten in the parking lot of Dodger stadium, again! I don't understand how people can go from being competitive about a sport to be willing to kill someone because of it. Then I read this story today that brought everything into perspective for me.

I read this article on the Daily mail which is like any other online news agency, biased and controlled by a biased entity. But today let's ignore that and just read it as if it's just objective facts. This 12 year old boy in Guatemala was ambushed by gangland thugs who attempt to order him to shoot a bus driver or be killed himself. His father is a bus driver and so he refused to shoot the bus driver. The thugs give him the option to be killed by machetes or thrown off a bridge. He chose to be thrown off a bridge. His father and rescuers found him 3 days later still alive but dying. The picture of his father cradling him as he lay there dying makes me realize I'm a little whiny spoiled brat for even feeling my life is ever tough. This child showed so much courage and self sacrifice. He laid alone for 3 days and lived for 15 more days in the hospital.

The realization that people could be so cold and heartless as to give a 12 year old such an ultimatum is the reason I will never be completely satisfied with our society. I have a responsibility as a father to help my kids become responsible and healthy adults so I continue on. I have a mentality of trying to see the bright side and be happy. I do tend to be pessimistically optimistic or hope for the best and expect the worst. But more than a lot of others I just see the positive side of things. But even with that I struggle to know that at this very moment someone is suffering and I'm not doing anything about it. Yeah I know what a lot of you are thinking. You little bitch danny. Quit your crying. Yeah, I've told myself the same thing. I just don't understand how as a society with such beauty at our fingertips we can spend so much time fighting and clawing for things that don't matter. None of it matters. The most financially successful people in history still were not satisfied. Guys like JP Morgan, Rockefeller, and Andrew Carnegie amassed fortunes that would compare to the ending of a game of Monopoly. Each of them though eventually realized that money cannot by happiness and they started giving their money away. That's because we all realize at some pointing that giving gives us the most joy. We have our hearts, minds, and our guts to help us make decisions with the help of our conscience. Eventually I hope that we as a people will realize that we were all put here to achieve peace and harmony not to capitalize on each other. I just believe that we're past the point of being able to accomplish that and that's where my disparity of our dark society comes in.

Rest in Peace Angel Ariel Escalante Perez. May the positive forces of the universe bless you in a way fit for a real soldier. A soldier that refused to commit murder even in the face of death. Would you have the courage to say no if you were in his shoes? I can't say that I would but I'll always respect and have love for this 12 year old who died a bigger man than many who have died with large fortunes. 

Here is a link to the story. 

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3274165/Tragic-moment-father-finds-dying-son-12-three-days-thrown-450ft-bridge-refusing-murder-random-bus-driver-job-parent-years.html

My top 5

These are my Top 5 but like everything it's relative and changing. I probably have taste that other people don't agree with but that's what makes us all unique right? I also know I can't count Who am I missing?


Recent

1. Anthony Donoso- NCIS

2. Gregory House - House

3. Temperance Brennan- Bones

4. Robert Goren - Criminal Intent

5. Barney Stinson - how I met your mother


Top 5 all time

1. Will - fresh Prince

2. Zack morris - saved by the bell

3. Sam Malone - Cheers

4. Michael knight - knight rider

5. Hannibal - A-Team


Top 5 rappers


1. Tupac

2. Biggie Smalls

3. Snoop Dogg

4. Dr. Dre

5. Eminem

6. Eazy E

7. Outkast

8. Lil Wayne


Top 5 country artists

1. Johnny Cash

1. Garth Brooks,

2. Dwight Yokam

3. Randy Travis

4. Kenny Rogers

5. Hank Williams

6. Reba Mcintire


Top 5 Rock artists

1. Beatles

2. Metallica

3. Pink Floyd

4. Zeppelin

5. Doors



Top 5 Presidents

1. Abraham Lincoln

2. George Washington

3. Teddy Roosevelt

4. JFK

5. Benjamin Franklin (Yeah I know he wasn't president but still did better than many presidents when it comes to contributions to this country)


Top 5 cars

1. Bentley

2. Mercedez

3. BMW

4. Maserati

5. Ferrari

6. Lambo


Top 5 baseball players

1. Babe Ruth

2. Willie Mays

3. Hank Aaron,

4. Ken Griffey Jr.

5. Sandy Koufax (Dodger fan)


Top 5 Basketball players

1. Magic Johnson

2. Michael Jordan

3. Kareem

4. Larry Bird

5. Kobe Bryant

6. Lebron James

7. Shaq


Top 5 football players

1. Joe Montana

2. Jerry Rice

3. Barry Sanders

4. Ronnie Lott

5. Deion Sanders


Top 5 hotties

1. Cindy Crawford

2. Kelly Lebrock

3. Angelina Jolie

4. Jessica Biel

5. Alyssa Milano


Top 5 actors

1. James Stewart

2. Tom Hanks

3. Jack Nicholson

4. Harrison Ford

5. Leonardo Dicaprio/Will Smith/Denzel Washington

Top 5 Trilogies (all 3)
1. Star Wars (original 3)
2. Back to the Future
3. Iron Man
4. Batman (Christopher Nolan)
5. Lord of the Rings
6. Godfather
7. Toy Story
8. Indiana Jones

Another school shooting

There was another shooting at a school last week. This time in Oregon. I read that at least 9 are dead and more wounded when a 26 year old male Chris Harper-Mercer shot a teacher in the head and began to open fire on studuip[/why does it keep happening. If we take a moment to analyze, observe, empathize and reflect, it's obvious. Desperation. When someone feels desperate, rationality is not always there. It might not be reality but if the perpetrator feels or thinks that way that's what their reality is. Attention is another reason. The more people that exist means the more amount some people find as opposition. Once again, doesn't have to be reality just their reality. Albert Einstein once said "Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one." Of course there are many factors because everyone is unique. Their experiences are unique as well. Most of the time the assailants didn't realize how fortunate they were, in my opinion. Let's take the UC Santa Barbara shootings committed by Elliott Rodger. A combination of entitlement and insecurities convinced Rodger that he was a victim. While one 22 year old can feel lucky just to have a job, a place to live, and a decent car to drive. Another can feel sorry for them self while receiving money from their parents, driving a paid for BMW, and living for free with no job. That entitlement makes them believe that something was owed to them that they did not get. Like a child throws a tantrum a mass murderer snaps and acts out. Once the vengeance is complete some feel remorse while others feel satisfied. The part that's not surprising is that it'll keep happening and get worse. Most of us contribute to some of the causes. Instead of treating each other with respect and the way we would like to be treated. We try to capitalize on each other and even eliminate. Free enterprise was a good idea but I think the idea of Capitalism creates a winner and a loser instead of a win/win for everyone. If there was a way to set a price on food/products/careers instead of making it all negotiable it might make things a little more balanced. The current system is more like a game of Monopoly where eventually someone wins. The different in America is that they try to keep Monopolies from happening like preventing TMobile and Verizon from merging. Any system that requires manual intervention and bailing out of large companies that would have failed otherwise in my opinion is not a solid system. The fact is that the system is broken and they're manipulating things to make it stay afloat which causes bigger problems later on. While they do things to keep it going citizens are feeling the squeeze. Our middle class has almost disapeared so that there is rich and poor. People grow up being told that they can accomplish anything but then they get older and it's not as easy as they were told. Some of these are entitled kids that were given everything growing up and so this sudden struggle is new to them and they don't know how to handle it. They're not used to the lack of attention that they used to receive and they desperately seek it. The only alternative in their mind is to create a scene so that people notice them.


http://www.cnn.com/2014/06/11/justice/oregon-high-school-shooting/




The part I was saying is our responsibility comes from our Capitalistic economy becoming a way of life. Think of it in simple terms. You're getting on the freeway and there is a line. Do you wait in line or do you try to get in front of the person in front of you? Many people will cut people off all day long and not think twice about it. It's natural for us to think of ways to take advantage or get ahead of others. I just read about another plot where kids were going to shoot up a school and had a list of students they were going to shoot. I'm curious to see the list and know what type of people were on there. Are they those kids that pick on other kids? Are they kids that the would be assailents are jealous of? I just see an increase in these shootings and wonder if there is any way for us to stop them.

Ben Carson

I have to be honest. I'm not a political expert or really an expert in anything. I'm what they consider a jack of A lot of (real term is jack of all) trades but master of none. But, I do have a lot of common sense. It gets undervalued because of the common part but in all honesty? I don't believe it's completely common. For example. I'm voting for Ben Carson if he makes it to the primary. Chances are he won't make it and I'll have to vote for one of the other candidates. Someone told me that it's silly to vote for Ben Carson, because "what does a surgeon know about running a country?" I know, that evokes so much response from everyone. But why? Ben Carson in my opinion has more qualifications and intangibles than Barak Obama. That's my opinion so please state your opinion. If I could vote for anyone in the world? Well, that's not allowed. It has to be a US citizen. If it didn't have to be I'd vote Elon Musk. Since it has to be, why not Ben instead of the rest of options? I'll discuss my opinion of every candidate, especially the ones I watched in the GOP debate last week. I'll be honest if I don't know, hopefully. If not, call me out. I do get carried away sometimes. Ben Carson speaks to me more than Huckabee, Christie, perry, Trump, etc. I was on team Trump, but then Ben Carson decided to run. Ben Carson has solved puzzles that nobody else has even realized were possible. No, seriously. Too many firsts to list. Trump has continued a family legacy while Ben Carson has redefined reality. Don't let this Ben slip by for imperfections just like we did the Benjamin on the 100 dollar bill. After hearing him in the debate, I feel even more sure about him. If there was a candidate that had some history in fighting corrupt ploiticians, and founding true non-profit orgs without profit? I would vote for him. There are some other criteria that would be nice too. But, since that doesn't exist, who will you and I vote for?

brotherhood (poetry)

Im down with this Russian. Hiding out in Pak after leaving Afghanistan. No hostility so no rushin. No need for hush money. But yes we need to keep running. Others below us are gunning so our detractors we're shunning. My sub-conscience is cunning, another brunette thats stunning. Driver in the parking lot keeping the hummer humming. My muse is strumming. Im amused by this game. Everyone is laughing but i dont find this funny. Haters will hate like bees to honey. I wish i could not give a fuck about money. Im ignoring my real mission here on earth to chAse this paper like a dummy. Before i get stuffed in a box like a mummy. I think theres something deeper in my tummy. So lets get out of this rut and make a difference in my lifetime. Everything in life is relative so in my mind im living in a plush kingdom. Vodka/rum/whiskey top shelf fuck it. Why order anything but the best when its all inclusive.

adhd spinning (poetry)

I heard this track last night. Combine it with today's events and it felt absurd to hold back. Alright now but at the time I felt out of whack. Times like a sequence all facts my thoughts are all stacked. Wish I could release them in order but my adhd has me all jumbled like a hard drive. Fragmented in disarray why do I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack? Like I walked away for 5 minutes and the ants got my picnic and now my plans are all crashed. Toss back some bottles now my equilibriums all off track. I'm smashed and in the morning my memorie's all black. But today my luck is back. I'm in a casino and everyting is going my way like the deck is stacked. Blonde on my left brunette on the right, roulette wheel spinning. Bitches be grinning cause grips of chips were winning. I don't give a fuck so money I'm spending. It don't matter about tomorrow as long as tonight I'm winning. But I take a moment to recollect, my thoughts are all specs.