Wednesday, September 30, 2015
adhd spinning (poetry)
I heard this track last night. Combine it with today's events and it felt absurd to hold back. Alright now but at the time I felt out of whack. Times like a sequence all facts my thoughts are all stacked. Wish I could release them in order but my adhd has me all jumbled like a hard drive. Fragmented in disarray why do I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack? Like I walked away for 5 minutes and the ants got my picnic and now my plans are all crashed. Toss back some bottles now my equilibriums all off track. I'm smashed and in the morning my memorie's all black. But today my luck is back. I'm in a casino and everyting is going my way like the deck is stacked. Blonde on my left brunette on the right, roulette wheel spinning. Bitches be grinning cause grips of chips were winning. I don't give a fuck so money I'm spending. It don't matter about tomorrow as long as tonight I'm winning. But I take a moment to recollect, my thoughts are all specs.
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Did you create this? Amazing. I found it by google a short thought I had to see if anyone shares my feelings. I couldn't agree more with this writing piece. Magnificent man. I am 26 years old and just this year was diagnosed with ADHD.I have been struggling to really understand why I have felt this way my whole life. When I first thought it may be ADHD I was not sure because I didn't know that this type of clouded brain was a symptom.
ReplyDeleteThe thought that led me to your page was that I feel like ADHD and how my brain operates is best compared to a severely fragmented hard drive if you into computers heh.
A fragmented hard drive will have all the important files there, but a bunch of old and unnecessary ones as well. Everything is there, but its all out of order. Your hard drive struggles to get to the file it wants and responds incredible slow getting that file processed because it has to slug through the crowded mess of files.
Think of that screen when you go to defrag your drive. All those colored squares mixed up and all over the place. This is how I feel my brain is with ADHD. All the important thoughts are there, but they are smothered by random and unnecessary thoughts as well. My mind slows way down trying to process the thoughts I want, and often time it just 'blue screen of deaths' and I give up whatever it is I am trying to do.
Taking ADHD medication is like a nice long defrag. It cleans everything up and allows me to process everything in perfect order. I am able to get to those files I need asap and its like I just installed a brand new high quality SSD. And like the second half of this piece I'll take too much and feel like a god on top of the world, fuck everything else I am going ham, until everything crashes down.
So whether or not you have ADHD or not this piece is FIRE! Would be dope to hear hit over nice beat. You could easily ghost right for half the industry. Good job dude.
If I could explain how adhd I am it would just spit into multiple subjects and we would get sidetracked talking about each subject. I am so glad someone was able to find some positive in my writing. I've tried to ghost write but nothing so far. I like your ideas about SSD and ADHD. As you'll see about me, I'm a total IT geek. Thanks again, Danny
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